Friday, 25 December 2009


I had two Christmas cards from pupils in my form. One was a muslim, the other a sikh.
In a school with a majority of white pupils I find this unforgivable. But how lovely that these two girls honored my festival. The rest can go stuff themselves.

Thursday, 3 December 2009

Depressed and ill

I am sat at home today because I woke up with a migraine. It started yesterday morning when I woke up with a headache and got steadily worse.
I am certain the reason for the migraine is a ery stressful day at work on Tuesday.
It began by a boy in my form making be absolutely furious. He came in late, would not take his gloves off, did not have a pen and then was very rude to me. He then accused me of being racist because I was crosser with him that another boy in the form who didnt take his coat off properly.
Then later on in the day I had my awful uear to class, one boy in particular was being very difficult (he is every week), he kept getting his phone out and playing music, distracting other. He was defiant and I ahd to send him out. There was a girl also who kept interfering and I had to send her out. They both refused to do as I asked, eventually they left but not till after she swore at me.
The whole things was very upsetting but what made it worse was that I recieved no help or support what so ever. There were no other emmebrs of staff in my department who could help me by taking a child away or keeping an eye on my class while the others were being delt with, I phoned the "student support centre" but there was no one who could come and take away the children. I even phone the head of eyar and one of the deputy heads and there was no answer on either of their phones. I felt totally helpless and alone. I was nearly cryong on the phone to student support.
Since this incident the boy in question was excluded for a day (but not a day that I teach him on) and I have now been informed that he is moving to my other art class. This will be no better as he will just disrtupt them instead. I have recieved no other help or support. All my head of department ever has to say is "you should of done this" or "you should ahev done that". This is no help as I can't go back in time!
Also yesterday I had the older sister of the boy who would not take his gloves off come in to school unnounced and tell me that she thought I was being unfair to her brother, that I was picking on him and that she could understand why he thought I was being racist. My Head of Department told me that I shouldnt have spoken to her. Lot of help this was after the conversation had already taken place.
So tomorrow I have to phone this boys parents who no doubt have already decided that I am unfair and racist. So not looking forward to that.
Also feeling today like I just dont want to be a teacher any more. Feel sick. Just want to be free from all the stress but I dont know what else I can do.
I feel that there is no support at all at my school for the teachers. there is plenty of help for the students but when the teachers are in despair there is no one there to help. No one cares.

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

objecting to learning objectives

Ok, so I am going to be a bit controvertial today. Basically, everything to do with teaching a good lesson is centered on the idea that children must be aware of what they are learning. Every since I began my journey through education I have been told that at the beginning of the lesson we must tell the pupils what the learning objectives are and at the end of the lesson we should review the learning objecties to find out if they were achieved. No one in my three years of education has been able to tell me why this has to be done, and no one has been able to show me any statistical evidence as to any positive effects this has on the childrens learning.
This is extrememly frustrating seeing as we have to go throuigh this palava every single lesson, ever OFSTED insist that they should be able to ask a child in their lesson what it is they are learning and the child should be able to say.
To me this is totally ludicrous, and I will explain why.
I believe that children do learn even when (shock horror) they are not being told what it is they are learning. This concept of giving learning objectives is rediculous not only because children learn much more in a lesson than what the teacher writes up on the board (usually just three or four objectives) but also because it gives children the improssion that they are only learning the things that they are being told they are learning.
This is not only stupid, but also damaging because the children begin to believe at times other than lessons, or when taking part in other activities, they are not learning.
I am yet to find any evidence to back up my theory but intend on doing some research and perhaps writing an essay on it for my MA in Teaching and Learning. I think the state have got it very wrong.
I really need to concentrate my thoughts on this matter better, be more articulate with it, and try and find someone who agrees with me and has written about it.
For cinc children to address what they are learning

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

a mockery of a mock exam

First day of the year 11 mock exam today.
The day didnt start very well, my form had been re-located for registration to another room with a cover supervisor, unfortunately the room they were meant to be in was in use. I went off to find out what was going on, but then decided just to take them into my classroom anyway because the exam had not yet started and the year 11's were getting registered in their forms. When I got back to my room, my form was already there and the cover supervisor was there was well. She asked me if she should stay or not, and I said she might as well go because I could register them myself. To my sadness my form wanted the cover supervisor to stay and said some rather nasty things after I had gone such as that she was much nicer than me. I was actually quite upset by this, not that they care, and I mumbled something about her not having to register them every day and check planners etc. It really hurts my feelings when they are like this because (dispite what they believe) I really make an effort with them, giving them activities to do in the morning, chasing absences, checking planners etc. I actually do care. There is one boy in particular who is quite nastly to me. I shouted at him once and recieved a letter from his mother basically telling me what an angel he was. I was writing his report yesterday and was generally putting that his behaviour was good, that was until I checked his behaviour moniter on the computer which showed that he had a lot of behaviour points. This was really disappointing, but also confirmed in my own mind what I had thought before which was that he is not an angel at all but actually a rather horrible boy.
Well after form I had my year 11's in for their exam, they actaully are a lovely class and the first day of the mock exam went really well, most if them knew what to do and didnt need much help.
However I was supposed to teach my year 10 class period four and someone was supposed to come and do the invidulation of the exam only no one came! I had to phone the office while my awful year 10 class were running riot. It turned out the person who was supposed to be doing the invidulation (a senior member of staff) was on a course, so after some confusion about what was going on I ended up doing the invidulation and a teacher who had a free had to go and look after my year 10's who I obviousely hadnt planned a cover lesson for because I thought I would be teaching them. Irksome, but more importantly an indication of the disorganised and badly run nature of this school.
Generally a good day overall especially as my head of department said she was going to try to negotiate a leadership point for me.
Only other thing was some discussion with the teacher I share photography with, we just discussed the pupilbut later on there was some frustration about the mock exam and how they had done very little work. My head of department sopke to him and she came back and told me he had some ideas, but she wouldnt tell me what. Now I am just worried about what he has planned.